I am not the average blogger.well, maybe I am, I don't really know. But what i do know is I don't write amazing stories or posts like I have seen others do. I write whats on my mind. My posts are full of errors and flaws that I try to pretend show personality, and in a way they do. But in all reality most errors are made by mistake. I can only hope that my posts are bearable to those who read them. I've found that all I can write about are certain subjects that I am currently dealing with. Right now I am faced with a decision.
When we are young we are taught that decisions should be made between right and wrong. They were simple. Life was black and white. We were also taught that every decision comes with a good or bad consequence. But what no one bothered to tell us was the hardest decisions we will ever make will be the ones that are not right and wrong. Not black and white. NO. Those black and white decisions were made when we were young. We may be faced by the occasional challenge to those long made decisions not to do drugs, drink, steal etc. But now decisions have become ones that are between to good things. Not everything is black and white as we often hope it will be. Life gets harder as we grow. As it should be, Yet sometimes we wish this was not the case. These impossible decisions are the ones that truly have the hard consequences. The ones that are followed with regret. I try to say that we should live without regrets. No regrets, only lessons learned. This is a lot easier said than done. When faced with two good decisions many people suggest making a list and comparing every which way. But is that really the best way to decide? What can we really say is the best? Disregarding any of your own feelings. Trying to please everyone else. Or trying to find your own path when the one you should truly walk has been paved and traveled before. Just rebelling. Getting lost. refusing to make a decisions and that in its self being a decision. . . . .
I have only found one really good way of making a decision. You must choose and act. Only with faith, time and action will prayers be answered. Even then you may still get a yellow light when it is not as clear as you wish but you've got to choose to stop or go. Yellow lights are not bad, only frustrating. This only mean there truly are two good paths for you to follow. and the worst that will happen is that you'll go back or link with the other pathway later on. No matter how fast or slow you travel you will always face decision, some easy, and others not so much. But if you know where you're going, and are honestly trying to get there, you will.
